There are two categories of Audiophiles (well, probably more than that but....): Gearheads and Musicheads.
Many Audiophiles are more in love with the gear than the music but are uncomfortable admitting it for fear of ridicule; and they keep quiet.
Some Musicheads seem to think their worldview is cleaner, purer and more noble than that of the Gearhead. Bull.
I am willing to openly admit that while I love music, I love the gear more.
I encourage you to stand up and feel comfortable about your choice because being honest with the world about what motivates us is freedom.
Gearhead or Musichead?